...right now as i type this it's about 9:55...
well right now my stomuch hurts i was in the hosptal,for about two days but now i 'm using this crappy laptop to type...
well i'm guessing some of you people are wondering what happened...well about 2 days ago i got kinda hungry when i was at home so then i jumped on my moped then went to the nearest 7-11 *nothing much to eat at home -_-* well i made sure i had my money then when i went into 7-11 i saw a guy behind me, he pushed me out of the way and pulled out a gun and went straight to the cashier...and told her to put the money in a paper bag he had..
when i got up i was kinda mad, but scared at the same time...so when i tried to sneak up behind him he tried to shoot me and missed the first time but then i grabbed the gun from him and tried to take it away from him, he punched me and i kinda fell back...then he shot me, kinda through the middle of my stomuch...
well right now i'm on my bed using a laptop...and my stomuch is really hurting...i'm recovering from surgery, and well the only reason i'm at home is because my grandparents couldn't pay for a room....
well to most of the people who were wondering where i was now you know...and also i want to say srry to most people who were just wondering and waiting for me...
ehh the thing is when it was all happening, even now i'm thinking about how my life is turning out...now i feel like just giving up on it...not killing myself, just give up...and live life without meaning, cause right now it feels like i don't matter to the world...and everytime it fails to bring me down...it just keeps on trying...
well i feel somewhat better now that some people know what happened now but other than that i feel just horrible...
and another thing...
something inside of me is wishing...
that i really...
did just...
die
