I'm so bored...I feel really sick...my life needs a pick up so badly...a wonderful little kick start...so so bad....
I don't want to sit here and complain but I need a place to vent my feelings...
Living a healthier lifestyle with no family, no close friends and no cash is kind of hard ya know...
No one understands you....lol....LMAO.......
Who wants to sit here and talk about pain....I've been trying for so long to get another job...the only reason I left my last one was because I thought I had another one ready assured...but I didn't ......lol.....
No one understands....I've had no choice but to figure it out...or I would've spent my life as a drugged condemned witch...no one understands...
I don't belong in this world....I really don't.....
I don't belong to it nor am I a part of it.....there's so much I have to fight to live lol...so much I have to fight against...and so much I have to understand to survive....I have nothing and no one to depend on but my own mind....
But I've found that alone...the mind can become very weak...strong in some ways but weak in many more still....it doesn't understand much of anything unless it has the chance to interact with others....lol....
Misunderstood...stepped on....LOL!!!!! XD LMFAO!!!!!!! ..................
I just wanted to forget that feeling and cherish every new moment as a brand new chance....I just wanted to learn......dwelling on it will kill your mind....
Neither of you two know the true meaning of those words.....you get to try.....but tell me how would you feel dear two...if you were not even acknowledged at all....if no matter where you turned...everyone hated and feared you.....everyone treated you like a freak....none of your words could even get through....you could never move, breathe, think, feel, express, try to go anywhere or do anything at all...
Understand the pain lol...........the pain of having no voice.......no life..............
You were allowed to make no choices, write anything, say anything, go anywhere, do anything, meet anyone, LOL.......remembering is so painful.......
And what do I do now?....Never having felt the closeness of someone who understands....in person....I've never been touched by anyone who understands anything about me.....ever.......
Please don't leave me alone.....please......I feel so alone.....it's hard to fight it... so hard.....so so hard to fight this pain...............please don't go..................... don't go and leave me all alone......I need you so badly..........I need you.........
it hurts so badly.....like my body is going numb and my heart is being stabbed....my guts are being eaten by worms....my mind is being blown apart....the pressure makes it impossible to breathe....
help me fight please......don't leave me here......I have to escape the darkness..
Tags: Zetsubou
