DISTANCE.......THAT F*CKIN WORD SICKENS ME

im waiting im being patient im here what more can i do my soul feels u my heart wants you...i hate this feeling...the feeling of u being away from me....the feeling u get when u just got off the spinning cups...werid feeling and sicken i want to hold u..i wnat to be near u...i want to kiss u....but its everyhting i want....i feel selfish in a way..i kno u want this to....but this damn distance..

UGH I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT

FUCK SELFISHNESS I WANT YOU AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME AT THIS POINT PPL MIGHT THINK UR NEVER GONNA WORK OUT CUZ ITS ONLINE MOSTLY BUT AFTER SEEING U FUK THEN LET THEM THINK WHAT THEY WANT

ALL I WANT IT U

AND THE WORD DISTANCE TO DIE.................

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May 24,2008 the greatest day of my life........ i finally met the one i love..the one i've been searching for my whole life...i found him im amazed, scared, shocked, happy, so many different emtions running though my body i dont know whatto do im doing crazy...shyt you driving me crazy...but i love very second of it...

running down those train station stairs, not knowing what the f*ck would happen, just going along with how i felt..i looked around nervous as all hell can be......then i saw you...the amazing person God put on this earth, here to see me...i started walking..stopped...my heart stopped...when u smiled...my heart melted.....i wasnt thinking anything at that point just that you came...my legs surprisly walked i wasnt controling them they just moved by themselves...my mind was such in a state of shock i didnt kno what to think or do...but i didnt fight back...hugging you i almost fainted......actually im really shocked i didnt........you hugging me tight i almost couldnt beneth but i didnt give a shyt...i loved ever second your arms where around me

emtions running like crazy....my mind doesnt know what to do...my body has a mind of this own now....all of this one person did to me....that one person changed me life forver...that day noone can take from us

~~~~~a rose of my love can never be broken~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~because i have you right here!~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~inside my heart~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i dont know if that makes sense but honestly i really dont care i can see my life without you if anything was to happen i'll die

David.....i love you with every last inch of my soul has and every space in my heart was full because of you

..............i love you..............

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loving u is scary

it scares the ??? out of me to tell u the truth but as we talk i realize y i love you............................................

its  ascary feeling honest its like im drunk and i cant control myself

but i like that feeling its weird but i do

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i wait here sitting staring out into space thinking bout u and im wondering how did u fall for me its confusing im loud crazy weird i dont think b4 i dont im so simple minded like 24/7 i dont kno what to do with myself half the time but here you are loving me loving me for me you can do so much better and yet u chose me.................

me to be grateful enough to be in ur presence its just so benth talking i dont kno what to think

but all i kno is that nothing else matters im with u

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The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today

There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what's right
No other course
No other way
No day but today

I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only goal is just
To be
There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today...

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I'm not perfect I'll annoy you piss you off say stupid stuff and then take it back but put that all aside you'll never find a girl that cares and loves you more than me

when I tell you I love you I don't say it out of habit or to make a conversation I say it to remind you that your that best thing that ever happen to me

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wow we're finally freaking together..... well it was mainly my fault that we weren't.... but yes I finally caved in and told him how I felt..... you should all clap for me cause that rarely happens...

people maybe wondering why I didn't really give David a answer in the beginning well it was because I had many, many, MANY bad relationships and I didn't really want another one. Then David come along...lol....honestly at first, I didn't like him, tell u the trust... he seemed like a rude idiot.....but then that day come..... Valentine's day........ wow I never thought I would ever like February 14 again...... I asked him to be my valentine's....only because I didnt have one and the fact he wasnt as bad as I thought. HE GUESSED THE CRUSH ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( he looked at who visited his page last)..lol

I was surprised I actually liked the dude as time went by..... I didn't tell him of course... that was my siblings job...

but its been like 2 months or so and I fell in love.... I promised myself that I would never do this again... that I wouldn't love anyone else..... after a unforgeable event happen in my life.....

I was always complaining to justin and bethany no to take anything to fast and shyt like that.........well, right now I cant blame them for how they felt cause right now I feel the same way they do.....

David... just a simple name to most.... but a life saver to me.... he showed me I could love again... that I wasnt just here to take up space in the world.... that I was someone ...someone that mattered...mattered to the world.... mattered to him.....

I cant see myself living without him... even if we ever to broke up... I will always be here for him. No matter what

even now I am going to be here for him, to do whatever to takes to see him, to hold him, to...........to love him.

I'd do anything................anything

i love him................... words i thought i would never say......

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do i love him

maybe i do

maybe i dont

everything that has happen has been hell

everyhting that will happen will be more hell

i kno his there

i want him there

but do i love him

does he even love me??????

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